I grew up in a religious family, so I regularly attended church services. In one of the children’s camps organized by our church I partially understood the gospel and asked for God forgiveness for my sins. After that, however, I spent years in doubt about my salvation because I incorrectly believed that a man who truly had gotten saved would not commit any sin. When I looked at myself, I saw this was not true in my case, so I was afraid of God's punishment. Then, when I felt my life had reached its nadir, the Lord made me understand that I could only receive the forgiveness of my sins by His grace, just on the basis of Christ’s merits, not because I had become a good enough man. He made me understand that my life should not be directed by the fear of hell but by gratitude for His grace. Ever since then my desire is to be a useful tool in His hands.